and stop being such a prissy cunt.

sorry i FORGOT to do that. sorry i did something WRONG. oh my god, let's have a bitch fit about it.

why do i have so many female friends? it's like constantly walking on egg shells.

I consider myself to be slighty nerdy, only because I've been around so many of them, and even dated one.


How White and Nerdy Are You?

Dola Re from the movie Devdas

this video makes me very happy. the movie, however, is very sad.

i want to dance on a train!

my crappy review of dil se:

Dil Se was a disappointment, considering that i'm an avid fan of shahruhk khan (main actor), farah khan (choreographer) and a.r. rahman (music genius). it's lame. don't watch the movie. the posted dance & song number is the only thing worth seeing.

fun facts about dil se (more bulleted posts!!)

• they actually are dancing on a train
• the girl in the video wasn't in the movie. she's what the industry calls an "item number", meaning just a random girl in a dance scene.
• the marks she has on her face and hands (the triangles) traditionaly are used to ward off the evil eye because of her beauty
• apparently shahruhk lost his footing and almost fell off the train. even after multiple viewings i couldn't find this in the video

Current Mood: bouncy

i'm glad my fever has come down. it sucked last night trying to graph some impossible shit for economics while burning the fuck up.

being sick means that i can do whatever i want. since i didn't have any bollywood movies to watch, i decided to watch tv.

• i still <3 csi (the original las vegas, that is)
• i do not dig law and order svu
  
• house is awesome
• project runway is addicting. thank god it's the only reality tv that i like. i predict michael will win, but i prefer jeffrey

Cirque du Soleil's Corteo

what the hell is this shit:
clowns and acrobats who may or may not be heterosexual jump around and sing broadway musicals in their native Gayanese tongue.

i will be traveling to atlanta with sarah on the weekend before spring semester starts. i believe the show is on the 7th of january. i have it written down somewhere. anyway, yay fun and excitement!! i got paid today, so i will write miss sarah a check the next time i see her to confirm the price and other information of my ticket that she so kindly paid for.

yes, i've known about this for awhile now. sarah bought the tickets about a week or more ago. however, today i am bored at work and finally looked into when spring semester will be starting (jan. 10th).

there have been talks of watching Cirque's O in las vegas after/on my 21st birthday. of course, one day i will watch Quidam (because it will come to atlanta. it WILL!), and that day will be a glorious day.

vive le cirque!

stupid page with mostly oprah quotes

princess1234 "tagged" me, or whatever.

Nothing is as simple as we hope it will be.
Jim Horning

The secret of a good memory is attention, and attention to a subject depends upon our interest in it. We rarely forget that which has made a deep impression on our minds.
Tryon Edwards (1809 - 1894)

Have no fear of perfection - you'll never reach it.
Salvador Dali (1904 - 1989)

Talking much about oneself can also be a means to conceal oneself.
Friedrich Nietzsche (1844 - 1900)

To do just the opposite is also a form of imitation.
Georg Christoph Lichtenberg (1742 - 1799)

Current Mood: irritated

jess: here's the snakes on the plane participation script (thanks to princess1234!). some of it is really funny.

work was crazy today. AUM invited the air force on campus. some old lady, who works on the 7th floor and constantly goes out on smoking breaks, whispered secretly to me in the elevator that the AF paid the school a million dollars to run around on campus, have conferences, and gamble on the 10th floor of the library. all of those activities which i listed are true, because the whole day i saw them riding around on fucking riced out golf carts and carrying casino tables into the elevators. oh military!

i also recieved two calls at work. one was from someone who was avoiding me. the other was from someone who wants to avoid me, but couldn't.

dethklok metalocalypse is fucking awesome! i <3 the extravagant violence, the fantasy aspects, and the scandinavian musicains! i also LOVE how it's not random, like the regular adult swim comedies are. i hope they keep building on the main plot!

Skwisgar Skwiegelf, Taller than a tree
Toki Wartooth, not a bumble bee
William Murderface Murderface Murderface
Pickles, the Drummer, doodly-doo (doodly-doodly-doodly-doo)
Nathan Explosion

skeet spirit - a crunk tribute to radiohead is fucking awesome as well! i must upload these mp3s soon:
fitter hyphier
skeet spirit
no sizzuripses
the national headbustaz anthem
flamboastin android
creepin on dat ass
talk show hoes
snaps out

i'm tired and my neck is killing me. sorry for the lazy ass writing (like always)

so, i was driving home the other night when a civilian car followed me and pulled up into my driveway. at first i thought it was a friend, so i parked in front of the gate and got out of the car. the man in the car says "stay in your car. this is the police." and i'm like, holy shit! i thought he was going to give me a speeding ticket. i don't even remember if i was speeding. anyway, he was looking for a red baretta, but apparently not mine. afterwards, two other unmarked police cars came up to my house. they all chit-chatted for a few minutes and then finally left. it was craziness.

i'm working 25 hours this week and next week. fun! but it'll give me time to finish some books. i'm reading an awesome book about cussing, as well as chuck palahniuk's choke, and catcher in the rye. i badly want to start on some pratchett, too. i'm also obsessed with crossword puzzles.

my gpa is a low B now. suxorz. i need to buy my school books online, but i have to wait til payday. i want to take a linguistics class. aum doesn't really offer a course like it, except selected topics in the english language and linguistics. =\ i'm going to complain to seeger about this!

So you're born on the cusp
Or it's a run of bad luck
But it's bigger than us
It's bigger than love

And the time your head cleared
You never feel it
You never look back
You never look back
You never look back...

You never look back

What's in the car
A CD-R
You never look back
You never look back
And it's bigger than us
It's bigger than love
Oh it must be I know
Cause it always wins
And it always wins
It always wins
It always wins
It always wins...

i also posted this on the digital cave

Dear Ankle,
What is wrong with you? Please stop hurting. I have to walk, you know.
Love,
Me

Dear Lungs and Liver,
Screw you guys, ahahaha!
Party hard,
Me

Dear Crabby Old Woman,
You are not making this semester easier for me. Please go back to teaching high school students.
Thanks for ruining biology,
Me

Dear Seeger,
Why haven't you emailed me back? =(
Still hot for you,
Me

Dear Insects,
I hate you little fuckers.
Hate hate hate,
Me

Dear Sweaty Nerd Boy,
Sorry I didn't answer your phone calls. No wait, I'm not sorry.
Please don't touch me,
Me

Dear San Marcos' Cheese Dip,
Why are you so delicious?
<3,
Me

an update for my smexy mama who left me for south korea, that bitch. (still love you, baby!)

ugh, i don't even want to think about steak for the next couple of months...the family had its little get-together tonight, in celebration of michelle's birthday, the kids' visitation, and a belated 4th. we had steak-out for dinner. it was good, of course, but i'm so stuffed.

added sarah to my lj. MY SISTA MY SISTA WHAT UP BITCH!

i hung out with jim today. it was okay, but he was a little bit too flirty. he just called about an hour ago, wanting to hang out again before he has to go to work. again? yeah. he's trying too hard. besides, i don't feel like going out right now.

i'm really disappointed that i didn't get to see pirates of the caribbean. and earl wanted to see it with me! oh well, i'll hang out with him sometime soon. so instead of the movies, i called dave and went over to his apartment. we talked for a long time and cuddled for a little bit. jeremy and jim called me while i was there, and they both acted weird over the phone. those silly bitches!

after i left dave's, jim called me again. he was drunk. it was the typical "hey i'm so drunk, ahahaha!" conversation. at least he wasn't crying and begging me to give him another chance.

and now i'm going to finish my presentation stuff. i need to go to campus tomorrow and make my powerpoint slides there. i am not looking forward to this shit.

someday we'll all be dead.

i think i have to stay out here until closing. it's kinda sucky, i hate having to stay in one place for a long period of time.

just talked to dr. fitzsimmons. he's pretty awesome. he said he knows that i haven't been in one of his classes, but that i look familar. of course, he remembers me from atlanta bread and mellow mushroom. unfortunately, i don't remember him, which is a good thing, because i only remember the horrible customers and the annoying regulars.

someone (definitely a korean girl) left a pencil bag thingie in the library. it's in the shape of a mouse, and says "GIVE ME CHEESE." it's really cute, but kinda dirty. i will take it at the end of this semester and wash it.

i need to study tonight after i take my nap. god, i need to do more research for my presentation. i'm just totally clueless about what to say. the most interesting things about the peace corps is its history. well, i guess, that's what these books are saying, anyway. but witkosky told me to mention the controversy about the peace corps trying to control the world and shape third world countries into something more americanized, or whatever. i'm thinking, that's not the peace corps, that's the american government.

jess called me when i was asleep today. i love the message she left me. it's so sweet. *sigh* i love you!

i should update this thing here... yes.

well, i didn't realize that i'd be socializing a lot this semester. what, you want to talk to moi??? i've actually had to give rain checks to a lot of people. woohoo, go miss popular. i can tell my parents are annoyed that i haven't been studying. i know, i should. i will. jessica is leaving (really bad timing, jess. i'll miss you, love), so i'll be a hermit now. i'll study constantly and live, breathe, dream biology. it's my punishment for not having the science smarts.

ok, i just lied. saturday i need to run over to matt's new bachelor pad. then, i'll probably spend the rest of the day with lane. she wants to me go to this party with her... and she wants me to meet this michael person who will be there. i tell her, "i don't like michaels." she laughs it off and says how cool he is. oh, he's kind of a hippie and he's your age, 19! he has long, beautiful hair... the more she talks the more my indifference turns to mild disgust. i tell lane, again, that i don't date michaels. my dad's name is michael. i had a stalker named michael. i also mention that i don't date johns, but that's another story.

it's funny how you can associate so many people with one name.

so yeah, i guess i will go to the party if lane wants to. i know jess will be upset with me, though. =(

i'd like to hang out with dami again. i see her everyday in the library, but we don't talk much. she introduced me to troy, (his name isn't really troy but he insists on me calling him that) who seems like a nice guy, but some things he says are kind of weird. he told me, when we first met, that he wants to shake my hand. wednesday night he was having problems trying to tell me that he wanted to hold my books. then, the same night, he went on to tell me that he would like to talk to me alone, and that he will thank dami for introducing us.

i'd also like to hang out with jack sometime. and sandi. and maybe go out to eat with ishi and kris. and earl, too, but not at one of those parties. oh yeah, i have to hang out with charles. he's leaving soon.

but not right now. i have so much school shit to do. test on wednesday, presentation on the 12th, more and more tests. i'll do research for my presentation during the 4th holiday. they will have to understand. also, i'm not doing anything for my birthday. i will sleep. i won't even mention it to my friends, because, like earl, they'll want me to do something.

i realize that i've known most of these people for awhile... it's just that i met them when i was dating jim, and he ruled my free time. now they all want a piece of me, ohh yeah baby!

I stumbled upon this website yesterday. it has a lot of awesome quotes. thanks, some guy, for keeping up with it.

Ich glaube mein schwein pfeif!
-- German expresion of disbelief (I think my pig is whistling!)

The following musings were spawned by one persons misspelling in the sentence, "...and had the longest series of ograsms in his life."
Do ogres have ograsms?
Does okra have okrasms?
Does Oprah have oprasms?
Do hors d'ouevres have hors d'asms?
Do Swedish tennis players have bjornborgasms?
Do race car drivers have four-on-the-floorgasms?
Does Jim Morrison have Doorgasms?
Does the Swedish Chef have bork-bork-borkasms?
Does the race of assimilating aliens have Borgasms?
Do people who snore get snorgasms?
Do keyboard players have Korg-asms?
Do golfers have foregasms?
Do Tolkein's monsters have orcasms?
Do prostitutes have whoregasms?
Do storytellers have loregasms?
Do army generals have wargasms?
Do Norse gods have Thorgasms?
Do miners have ore-gasms?
Do discordians have fnorgasms? Can other people tell?
Do candy bars have Skorgasms?
Does my professor have Boregasms?
Does Al have Goregasms?
Do epileptics have spasmgasms?
Do rowboaters have Oargasms?
Do you have yourgasms?
Do computer engineers have norgasms?
-- some probably very disturbed 'net personality.

NEW 1991 POLITICALLY CORRECT LABELS
OLD LABEL: NEW LABEL
--------------------
conservative: reactionary
the Establishment: White Power Elite
hearing person: temporarily aurally abled
sighted person: temporarily visually abled
blind: visually challenged
mute: vocally challenged
dead: metabolically different
alive: temporarily metabolically abled
ugly: aesthetically challenged
fat: alternative body image
rude: politically correct
psychopath: socially misaligned
bald: follicularly challenged
non-white, non-male: oppressed
white: melanin-impoverished, genetically oppressive
white male: oppressor
black: african-american
asian: asian-american
afro-american: african-american
pregnancy: parasitic oppression
janitor: sanitation engineer
dishwasher: utensil sanitizer
dairy: where cows are raped
ranch: where cattle are murdered
egg ranch: where hens are raped
biology department: where animals are tortured and then murdered to
fulfill the sadistic fantasies of white male
scientist lackeys of the imperialistic drug companies
fishing: raping the oceans
farming: exploiting mother earth
paper bag: processed tree carcass

buried dreams - andromeda strain
A predator Awaits
His time to be discovered
Just waiting for a prey
The index case
He will spread the death
Through all the race
The horseman of the plague
Now it' s useless
to pray . . .

Andromeda strain you will die soon
Loosing blood through every hole
Melena, myalgia and fever
Ebola-like disease

Now you have the touch of death
Deterioration by sweating blood
Repulsive body in
Agony . . .

The prophecy was true
Eradication of our kind
Alone we walk the path
Many of us will die
Only the chosen may survive this time . . .
Of chaos and death

Your face becomes a mask
Of expressionless white skin
From where the sunken eyeballs
Cry bloody tears that fall
Screams from all around
Everywhere the bloody eyes
That stare with the horror
Only death can paint
in the eyes . . .

The prophecy was true...

Struggling to breath
Walking through streets
Where convulsing bodies
Just fall and die
Before your eyes
The vision of the slaughter
Of a heartless killer

You see a pregnant women
With a fetal loss
And genital bleeding
There's nothing you can do
But pray for her
She died in a state of shock
And the pain of her lost

Your time has come
nausea , vomiting, bleeding, myalgia, fever
anuria, melena, delirium, tachypnea, convulsions
coma, stertor, death

Has ended with our kind ?

There's no disease
That can kill us all
A few just may survive
There's hope, another chance

But for now the silence reigns
Many corpses in the slaughter field
With their static bloody eyes
Just wondering why?
The smell of rotting flesh
Floats with the wind
That also caries the disease

i'm so tired. so tired. i have cash on me, finally, now i will buy myself food.

he won't leave me the fuck alone. 
i thought he was ok last week, when i first met him, but since i gave him my number...  i'm so stupid!
he calls me at least three times everyday, and then he has the nerve to come up to my work! i don't want to talk to you right now, you fucker. 
can't you see i'm busy? obviously, i am, since i'm at fucking work.
no, i don't want to have breakfast with you. no, i don't want to have dinner with you.
no. no. no. no.
you creepy motherfucker.

holy fuck, i ran into him again after posting the above rant.
he said he wants to take me to some mountain or something next saturday. yeah, i will ride with you on your motorcycle and we will go to a mountain. fucking excellent, mr. mccreepy.
i guess monday i'll tell him that he's creeping me out. i wish i had the balls to tell him what i really think of him. (you have my father's name, you talk like forrest gump, you wear horrible cologne, i've only known you for a week and you want to plan an outing in the mountains? WHAT THE SHIT. and you want to screw me? that's fucking gross.)

reasons why i'm a bad person: revised and updated!

1. i usually drive 80-90 mph on the interstate. i've been doing this for over a year now. i've only recieved 1 speeding ticket, but that was when i was doing 88 in a 70 somewhere in georgia.
2. i'm not in a relationship and i'm definitely not in love. i'm the happiest i've been in awhile
3. i smoke a lot. i love smoking, but i do not love the smoker's cough. ew. i smoke about a pack per day. i really should just quit. most of the people i hang out with now don't even smoke.
4. i don't want children. what's so wrong with that, really? it's not selfish; the human race will not become extinct if i do not breed.
5. i lie to people, but not a lot. i usually do it without knowing that i did. of course, after i realize that i lied, i can't just say to that person, "nevermind what i just said, it was a total lie!"
6. sometimes i make up shit just for the hell of it. for example, i once told michelle that she should shampoo her hair twice and then use conditioner. ha, that was funny at the time.
7. i regret a lot of things.
8. i'm glad for the life experience, but i do regret jim.
9. i dislike my work. tom seems like a cool guy, but the way he acts makes me feel uncomfortable, because i think that he thinks that i'm always doing something wrong. dermesha is really, really mean, and i get the impression that she doesn't like white crackers like me. i don't like her at all and she's always working when i am, fucking hell.
10. i wish i were more out-going and had more experience.
11. i'd like to be more outspoken in class, but i'm afraid that if i say something, the teacher will either not understand what i'm trying to say or they'll just think that i'm really retarded. i've said stupid shit in my german classes, and i've said the most completely wrongest stuff in business law. sometimes i have to force myself to try, because it's still a little embarrassing.
12. i always extend my breaks to 20-30 minutes, instead of 15
13a. i haven't lost faith in humanity. humans just want to have a happy and satisfying life. we should have the free will to do whatever we please, even if it means recieving a Darwin award.
13b. what i just said above doesn't make me a bad person.
14. i want to be zany and so-far-out-there, but i just don't have the energy.
15. i don't have time to eat on the weekdays when i'm at school. sometimes i'll bring a bag of crackers to class. i usually go 10 or so hours without eating. when i come home late at night, i'm starving and i overeat. i shouldn't do that, but i get so fucking hungry!
16. i keep thinking about shit that i want to buy with my nonexistent money. i think, hey, i'm gonna go to the cafeteria and buy myself a subway sandwich. oh wait, i don't have money for that. it's really sad when i can't afford lunch.
17. i wasted so much money on that fucking accounting course. i charged the book on my mom's credit card, and i paid for the stupid $27 personal trainer kit that i didn't even use.
18. college is a huge waste of money and time. greater education and life opportunities my ass.
19. i'm seriously considering getting a weekend job somewhere, maybe back at mellow mushroom, just for spending money. i'm dying to go shopping, and i hate shopping. i just want nice things and a new wardrobe.
20. i wish i went to high school, but i'm kind of glad that i didn't. i probably would've turned out to be a wigger, or something, and i wouldn't have had the time and experience to play on the computer and obtain the geekiness that i do have now. also, teaching myself to learn and study from textbooks has helped out a lot in college.

relief:

Course Dropped/Partial Refund on Jun 13, 2006 1149 ACCT 2010 B Undergraduate (Semesters) 3.000 Normal Intro to Financial Accounting

woohoo 50% refund. now i have money to pay for the other half of this course!

the kittens keep running into my closed door. poor kitties. they're running all over the place now. there's tons of cats, everywhere, i keep stepping on cats!

does anyone want a kitten? come on, they're cute and fluffy!

i'm meeting up with jim tomorrow. i don't know why we have to meet up, next time i'll just ask him to give me the check when i'm at work. i wonder if we could just hang out and talk, like friends, but we would probably be bored with each other. i've already spoken with him on the phone twice today. he seems...um...nicer?  he said that he could only give me $100 this week, and that he'll try to pawn his bike for the extra cash that i asked for... suuurre.
earlier today i was looking at pictures of mitch hedberg, and i realized that jim does look a lot like him, especially when jim had longer hair. i just think it's weird that i didn't notice it before.